Not Today!

The other evening I watched the television show “Private Practice” that the “CEO” of My2ndHeartBeat had recorded on the DVR. Not my normal type of show to watch, but the title, “I’m Fine” caught my eye. Mostly because about a year ago, I wrote a blog titled the same … click on this link to revisit that post …. “I’m Fine”.

Though my “I’m Fine” and the TV episode “I’m Fine” were different, I got caught up in one of the storylines of this show. More specifically, being sick and supporting each other.

For those that watch this TV show on a regular basis, please bear with me. For everyone else, here’s a bit of background.

On Private Practice, there is a psychiatrist, who has prostate cancer and he is enduring radiation treatments for his cancer. Each day in the treatment center waiting room he would meet a woman, who had breast cancer, which had metastasized in the brain. Thus, she was terminal. For 5 minutes or so each day they would share a bond, a friendship in which they would share their lives, their thoughts and emotions as well as each other’s support before their respective treatments. One day she wasn’t there and he thought the “worst”. When she did arrive the following day, he grabbed her, kissed her and said he wanted to take her to lunch, to dinner, to lunch the next day and every day. With a tear in her eye, she looked into his eyes and exclaimed, “But, I’m dying!!” He looked back into her eyes, smiled and said, “Not today!”

“Not today!” – How poignant is that? And how true for most people. That simple little line touched me as I sat there. I admit I got a bit misty eyed.

In the heart transplant community, a vast number of recipients group together and have an ad hoc support system in place. If any of us become ill, have a dark day, or need anything, the others will throw a ton of support and prayers at the person in need. It is an AMAZING system. I’ve been pulled from the grips of despair a number of times by these wonderful friends. There is also an on-line support system, , that works wonders as well.

We are all dying. We start on that journey towards death the moment we are born. We are all going to die, it’s is that simple. But, hopefully, NOT today!!

We touch each others lives, we fight separate but similar battles. And, in the end we will all take our last breath, and our hearts will beat their last beats.

I’ve been to “the end of the road” and I know, with a heart transplant that my days are NOT unlimited. It is just a matter of fact.

Life is short …. too short ….. when you touch another’s life, please do it with compassion …. with kindness ……. and most of all, touch others with LOVE! Know that we all have issues. Have your shoulder ready for someone else to lean on. Know that the world changes and go with the flow. Live with no regrets, as few fears as possible and have faith in your God!!

I might be dying, you might be dying ……. but, “NOT TODAY!!”


About DAP

I am a heart transplant recipient and these are my stories and thoughts. My desire is to assist others pre or post heart transplant in anyway possible. Please feel free to contact me if you have a question.
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1 Response to Not Today!

  1. giggles says:

    You are one amazing person. I hope you know what your friendship means to me! Big Hugs and Lots of love coming at you this minute!

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