5,000 Days

“if we step back and rest, we will see the wholeness in it all. We will naturally apprehend the good in how things are, taste the underlying strength, beauty, and wisdom that lives even in the difficult days, take delight in the gift and blessing of being alive.”

~ Wayne Muller

Five thousand days ago today, a new heart was placed in my chest. It was during the darkest days of my life, though I was totally unaware of most of which happened up to this point and a numbers of days after.

My loving donor had passed two days earlier and his family was going through ever darker times. Planning a funeral for a promising, handsome young man that left this earth way too soon. He was the type of guy that would do anything for you. If you were a friend or family member he always had your back. He was truly LOVED!

I will never forget Benny Keith Ward. He is my driving force. He is the light at the end of my tunnel. He is LIFE to me!

He’s been with me through the up and downs, the trails and tribulations, the tears and laughter of the past 13 years, 8 months and 6 days. He’s been with me at my best and guided me through the worst of times. His heart, steadily beating inside of me, with unwavering strength and resilience.

I gave up asking “why me?”, and “why Benny?” years ago, as I know God has his reasons.

Every day, I attempt to honor Benny. Most days I believe I succeed, and if I felt like I let him down, I try even harder the following day.

Thank you Benny for 5,000 of the best days of my life, and all the moments we’ve had within those days and I hope we can do many more together.




About DAP

I am a heart transplant recipient and these are my stories and thoughts. My desire is to assist others pre or post heart transplant in anyway possible. Please feel free to contact me if you have a question.
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4 Responses to 5,000 Days

  1. Jackjones says:

    Wow , thats all i can say, this is a wonderful story of loss and life , im overwhelmed by this.

  2. DAP says:

    Thanks! It’s been a heck of a journey! ❤

  3. justcalmwildness says:

    This is beautiful. Here’s to better years in honor of Benny and full of joy and peace.

  4. DAP says:

    Thank you! I embrace God’s plan …. and his timing. We do the best we can do! ❤

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